Letting go (part 1)

Letting go isn't easy. Especially when its somebody you love with all your heart. As expected, its a boy. And the irony is how both of us love each other so much but we can't be together for various reasons. 

We'll be leaving each other with a heavy heart. It just seems so unfair but hey its not in my hands. What am i supposed to do. 

I smile when deeper in my eyes, you can see tears wanting to flow freely. I'll literally be starting a new life in a few weeks. Its going to be unbelievably rough because i'm not the kind of person who caves easily to peer pressure and that kind of stuff and i have enough brains to say no. But its still going to be really hard cause of the way i am. I dont believe in pretending. But its going to be even harder knowing that you're not going to be here to give me strength. 

I'm going to miss those late night phone conversations, all the times i burst out into tears with you on the other line, all the times you made me laugh so hard i litearlly began crying, all the times you looked into my eyes and say "i see much more beneath that innocence", and i wll NVR forget that happy birthday song, i'll always miss you bugging me by calling me a tube light which you know i hate but i cant ever get mad at you for that.

Whoever said that letting go was easy should be dipped in blood and thrown into a pool of great white sharks... moron....